19days more for my Birthday, and my close friends and other dear ones have already began to ask me about my plans for THE day! I tell them that like always I am not excited about it and haven’t planned anything. Also that my birthday goes just so well without me sitting and planning out anything, all thanks to my sister, mum, dad and my dear friends!
Over few years now, similar traditions has been on and now guess what because of these guys I actually was looking forward for my birthday to come and it to be the 26th of July until this moment, when it struck to me that I am going to be 20! And all of a sudden I was in deep thinking… I was going to be out of teens now and become TWENTY years old!! I am timorous about the years coming ahead… when I will be out of college and I will have to be more responsible and more thoughtful about the things I am doing or have to do!
It makes me go down the memory lane…and I am reminded of the school times… when everything was so cozy and stress-free. Just study for the exams and automatically we were put to the next standard. We didn’t have to think about which stream to take or which subjects to pick so that we will be able to score well! I had my school as well as classes in the same near by complex Lok Puram. It used to be an untroubled schedule of going to school on cycle… coming back home… and then back to Lok Puram for classes. Mum was so protective to send me alone beyond the known locality as we were just small kids then. My life was just confined to the extent of Vasant Vihar where I used to go for my drawing classes… that was all about it!!
Then things moved further and I was at a stage where I had to decide which stream to pick from Science, Commerce and Arts! I chose Commerce and Life’s extent extended to Matunga where my college is and then after a few days when I got a hang of how the trains work and which alphabet belongs to which station things became much easier and then traveling was a cake walk!
Now I am panicky as I will be out of college in just a year. Though I have decided on taking up MBA but there is so much of uncertainty!! I have no clue if I am going to get in a good college or will be working. The thought of working and getting married in the years ahead somehow makes me so anxious! I feel that I am not yet ready to do all these things or may be I am not prepared for it at all. At this point I just don’t want my birthday to come so that I won’t become 20... It’s not about becoming 20 but it’s about becoming older and coming closer to all the above mentioned terrors! I don’t want to get older than this and stick to this age alwaysssss!
